The Last Time

Hi, i love you. i dont know when or how it all started. but I was glad i did fell in love with a person like you. You are that smart, cute amazing guy who loves to talk about science, anatomy, pharmacology and crazy things, I enjoyed that side of you, that side where I hoped you only show to me. You talked excitedly about your future how you always wanted to become a Doctor which I know you'll gonna become someday, but sometimes I want to ask you if you made plans for the future where I am included, whether the thing we have now will last or this is just a momentary bliss. I know i have no right to tell you it’s unfair because to be honest, i am, indeed thinking about a future where you still exist. I know you've been very busy these days and I again have no right to demand anything from you, because thats what love is right? You must not ask anything in return, but please dont make me think as if I dont matter to you, yes I get it, you have your priorities but can you not rub it in my face? Youve been very cold, when you look me in the eyes its as if youre not even there, I cant even remember the last time you hugged me or told me that you love me or kissed me, those surprise kisses you plant on my cheeks, the last time you send me those random long messages I receive everytime, those i miss yous, everything. I just, i just miss how things work for us when we were on our first 5 months, the way we talk about random stuffs and not worrying about anything else, the way we have those silly plays which we enjoy a lot, how you say those i love yous with your eyes fixed on mine and all the little things that used to give us butterflies and sparks. We were so in love back then, it was as if nothing could pull as apart, but now, I wake up every day with this reality that we are not the same, the you and me that used to be doesn’t exist anymore. I miss us. Is it me? Or is that what you really are? I dont know what to come up with all of these, but  Have I done anything wrong? Do I bore you? Am I not the woman you fell in love with a year ago? What happened? I kept on giving myself excuses on your lapses, and whenever you walk out on me or not treat me well because I don’t want to think that our love is already faltering.   But I will never give up, as long as there is still something worthy of holding on to, as long as this fragile line that lies between our feet can hold us together, I wont lose hope. But if one day I get tired, please, don’t ever think that I didn’t love you enough to hold on, I just couldn't find anymore reason to.

Back on Track

                                        Hell yeah. Guess who's back on track?


                                        Yep. You thought it right. That's me!! Hahahahaha!!

                                       

                                      After almost a year, woah, i missed posting fun stuff about me. damn imagine that?

All i can say is WHATTHEFOCK? Hahahaha! Im in college now, and I barely even have time for myself, the hell. I miss highschool. Good times, When i still have the chance to fix my hair and sleep for 8 hours. Now. Well, it's very tragic actually, (am i a whiner? HAHAHAHA) i can't even process that I survived 2 semesters on being a Nursing Student. Ha! Guess im not really that of a bad-ass student. Whale. This is it. I just want to post this to patch up with the many months of unposting. Luckily, i remembered opening this site,unluckily, i still have a term paper to be passed tomorrow and me and my 2 other groupmates are like cramming already (regrets people!), you know when girls have a sleep over right? Instead of finishing our paper, we always end up chit-chatting. Hahahaha so til here? Imma finish this stuff first. 

xoxo,

Zhai~

SUMMERLovin'

SCHOOOOOL's OUT FOR SUMMER!

Hell yeah. And that's why I smile, Hello! it's been a while :") Long time no post beybeh. Just graduated from HIGHSCHOOL!! *insert firework here* Geez. Time REALLY flies when you're having FUN. I never imagined my senior year would be this Uhhh-Some. And i never imagined meeting these amazing people:

The picture on the Left side is a picture of me (AquaBlue*3rdfromtheleft*) and my BFFs in my Last year of highschool. Our group's name's THE BRADS since WE are all boys, and yeah, i consider myself as a guy since i entered this group, they're like the most wonderful boys ive ever met, they're all like my brothers and i can't imagine my life without them. I could write a book on how these people helped me become what I am today.. Haahaha Oh well, Too much drama already. The GIRLS on the right picture are my Bestfriends when i was still a freshman, if anyone here asks who ruined my innocence, those girls are to be blamed. Hahaha We went through a lot of fights, really, but we STILL ended up being together, maybe now not as a group, but as FRIENDS, and i can no longer ask for more.

And yeah, as what ive mentioned earlier, SUMMER's finally here. Hoping to enjoy the BEST of it.

Til my next post *waves* ^^,

Zhairra~

no other

im back:| im not really in the mood of blogging tonight. i just found out something. irdk why im affected. in the first place, i just met him once! for crying out loud. and what am i thinking? crushing on a complete stranger?

1. i went to Gaisano to buy isn stuffs and all that. then i decided to eat while studying(?) at the mall's foodcourt.

2. then it was getting late so i really had to go, but then i found out the rain was really on its crazy stage, and that means, i cant go home yet. so i continued studying.

3. minutes later the rain stopped. went outside, BUT.. it just happened that the rain went pouring again (heavily) so i panicked and got on the very first jeepney i saw--bugo.

4.irdk where im going. i just want that rain to stop. the conductor asked me where will i be going, so i said "ambot" he was bewildered, and believe me, i was,too.

5.the jeepney stood still at DV (ugh. traffic!) then this guy got on the jeepney

6. i didnt saw his entire figure first, because i was busy thinking of something (ha-ha).then i caught an eye on him and God! he was gorgeous, indeed, HE IS. from the tip of his finger down to his toe nails (though i havent seen his toe nails) his hands are nice, just the way i like it. his eyes were fierce but entirely adorable. his smile that just captivates me(?) --since he's talking to one of the passenger w/c happened to be his friend.

7. by that time, i really dont want to go, but i was near my destination-- shekinah. (oohh, great i thought im going to get lost, oh well,perhaps i am lost--in his eyes (cheesy!) i still want to catch him staring at me. i still want to feel the butterfies in my stomach go wild everytime oureyes meet. i still want to see him! guess fate wasnt with me now. i really need to go this time. goodbye strangercrush <3>

BAAAAAANG! im back to reality. face it! its a small world after all. it so happened that he is a blah blah blah of my blah blah blahs. and i just found out. he IS TAKEN! i mean, i saw my ******'s comment on fb "he's taken, but he's still cute!" okaaay~ how lucky that girl is. but still, there's no turning back now. im not gonna give up. i know, we'll meet again. maybe tomorrow , the day after tomorrow, next week, next month, next year, gaaaaahhhh! i just hope we would.

black white gray.

hi?

long time no post. actually, i havent been busy these days. but its just that i kept on busying my mind to avoid falling in love with this guy. hmm? OH! I HAVENT I TELL YOU YET. ME AND HIM. HMMM WE'RE THROUGH. AS IN SPLIT. weird though, but im so loving being single, and free. hmpf! >:D back to our topic, bout the falling in love thing. factually speaking, its a very long story. HAHA. well here it goes

1.he is my cousin's bf's brother

2. he was the one who found a way to communicate with me *smiles* (oohw. sweet ! )

3. we became friends

4. he confessed something. bet you know what i mean.

5. i broke up with my bf. bad attitude-- pride, immaturity etc. etc.

6. we're spending time together [sometimes]

7. learned something bout him. like his being a sporty dude. he knows how to play instruments w/c obviously, i can't -- guitar *electric , drums and keyboard

8. THINK IM FALLING IN LOVE WITH HIM. crazy right?

but guys, i really need time to think and clear things up. and i got many issues right now. have you ever felt like , hmm yeah you trust him but its yourself that you can't? im feeling a bit confused. ugh >:D but im really sure with him. i know he really loves me. funny how time rushes us. i love him, but im still in the process of being in love. this time, it will last. maybe this time, my love won't end. and guess what? i already met his parents. lol. hmmm? *grins*

p.s

i made my title black white gray coz its his favorite colors hmmm? *cheesy *coughs* ehemm

sloth XD

weeew. Long time no post ^_^ my summers kinda boring so far. ive been suffering with our net connection for a month. A MONTH!! ugh.

anyways i had fun yesterday at our I.N.O.M fellowship. we played games. LOL and we bagged the last place in the amazing race rofl. and we'd been swimming for at least 8-9 hours sice our venue is at tropical bulua.

nothing quite happened to me these days. O.o okay. we'll chit chat maybe some other time. im kinda lazy today. bye !

icecream XD

this post will gonna be short >:DD

this day was a total icecream-out day. so here's the thing. im gonna write this days events step by step! XD

• ~i continued reading this book-- 3 guys you'll never date. uhm actually i borrowed this from zaira last year, october to be exact. weird. because i found it boring at the first part. but its fun actually except the stuffs about you know. the parental-guidance-thing XD
• ~i went to my cousins house, remember ate danese?okay.
• ~then my uncle bought some ice cream. and the thing that kills me is its flavor. UBE! imagine? my hatest flavor. of all flavor????? ugh

okay thats it end of discussion i dont want to talk to you about what happened next. haha maybe next time. deal? :DD