no other

im back:| im not really in the mood of blogging tonight. i just found out something. irdk why im affected. in the first place, i just met him once! for crying out loud. and what am i thinking? crushing on a complete stranger?

1. i went to Gaisano to buy isn stuffs and all that. then i decided to eat while studying(?) at the mall's foodcourt.

2. then it was getting late so i really had to go, but then i found out the rain was really on its crazy stage, and that means, i cant go home yet. so i continued studying.

3. minutes later the rain stopped. went outside, BUT.. it just happened that the rain went pouring again (heavily) so i panicked and got on the very first jeepney i saw--bugo.

4.irdk where im going. i just want that rain to stop. the conductor asked me where will i be going, so i said "ambot" he was bewildered, and believe me, i was,too.

5.the jeepney stood still at DV (ugh. traffic!) then this guy got on the jeepney

6. i didnt saw his entire figure first, because i was busy thinking of something (ha-ha).then i caught an eye on him and God! he was gorgeous, indeed, HE IS. from the tip of his finger down to his toe nails (though i havent seen his toe nails) his hands are nice, just the way i like it. his eyes were fierce but entirely adorable. his smile that just captivates me(?) --since he's talking to one of the passenger w/c happened to be his friend.

7. by that time, i really dont want to go, but i was near my destination-- shekinah. (oohh, great i thought im going to get lost, oh well,perhaps i am lost--in his eyes (cheesy!) i still want to catch him staring at me. i still want to feel the butterfies in my stomach go wild everytime oureyes meet. i still want to see him! guess fate wasnt with me now. i really need to go this time. goodbye strangercrush <3>

BAAAAAANG! im back to reality. face it! its a small world after all. it so happened that he is a blah blah blah of my blah blah blahs. and i just found out. he IS TAKEN! i mean, i saw my ******'s comment on fb "he's taken, but he's still cute!" okaaay~ how lucky that girl is. but still, there's no turning back now. im not gonna give up. i know, we'll meet again. maybe tomorrow , the day after tomorrow, next week, next month, next year, gaaaaahhhh! i just hope we would.

black white gray.

hi?

long time no post. actually, i havent been busy these days. but its just that i kept on busying my mind to avoid falling in love with this guy. hmm? OH! I HAVENT I TELL YOU YET. ME AND HIM. HMMM WE'RE THROUGH. AS IN SPLIT. weird though, but im so loving being single, and free. hmpf! >:D back to our topic, bout the falling in love thing. factually speaking, its a very long story. HAHA. well here it goes

1.he is my cousin's bf's brother

2. he was the one who found a way to communicate with me *smiles* (oohw. sweet ! )

3. we became friends

4. he confessed something. bet you know what i mean.

5. i broke up with my bf. bad attitude-- pride, immaturity etc. etc.

6. we're spending time together [sometimes]

7. learned something bout him. like his being a sporty dude. he knows how to play instruments w/c obviously, i can't -- guitar *electric , drums and keyboard

8. THINK IM FALLING IN LOVE WITH HIM. crazy right?

but guys, i really need time to think and clear things up. and i got many issues right now. have you ever felt like , hmm yeah you trust him but its yourself that you can't? im feeling a bit confused. ugh >:D but im really sure with him. i know he really loves me. funny how time rushes us. i love him, but im still in the process of being in love. this time, it will last. maybe this time, my love won't end. and guess what? i already met his parents. lol. hmmm? *grins*

p.s

i made my title black white gray coz its his favorite colors hmmm? *cheesy *coughs* ehemm

sloth XD

weeew. Long time no post ^_^ my summers kinda boring so far. ive been suffering with our net connection for a month. A MONTH!! ugh.

anyways i had fun yesterday at our I.N.O.M fellowship. we played games. LOL and we bagged the last place in the amazing race rofl. and we'd been swimming for at least 8-9 hours sice our venue is at tropical bulua.

nothing quite happened to me these days. O.o okay. we'll chit chat maybe some other time. im kinda lazy today. bye !

icecream XD

this post will gonna be short >:DD

this day was a total icecream-out day. so here's the thing. im gonna write this days events step by step! XD

• ~i continued reading this book-- 3 guys you'll never date. uhm actually i borrowed this from zaira last year, october to be exact. weird. because i found it boring at the first part. but its fun actually except the stuffs about you know. the parental-guidance-thing XD
• ~i went to my cousins house, remember ate danese?okay.
• ~then my uncle bought some ice cream. and the thing that kills me is its flavor. UBE! imagine? my hatest flavor. of all flavor????? ugh

okay thats it end of discussion i dont want to talk to you about what happened next. haha maybe next time. deal? :DD

happy easter ♥

me and te danese

weeew.shh haha

vanity pose XD

again? vain XD

hot issue xD

happy Easter readers. :DDD how's your day? well if you'll ask me. ugh, hmpf, its quite a day, really XD

my family decided to go swimming. their first choice was in jasaan, i guess? but, as what taylor swift said "people are people and sometimes we change our minds" lol. so our final destination was in tropical. well, its kinda "sumo" because ive been there a lot of times.

later on, actually i had fun. LOL. what else will you expect? i went on yelling at my cousin, danese, its like "YAYA, clap my hands!" haha. she got pissed off, not literally. then we went on teasing each other. including her ate--charmaine.

after maybe 30 minutes of swimming, we went straight ahead at our spot, and ate. then headed to the bathroom and change our clothes. then after many chatter chatter CHATTER! and what so ever we went off to my uncle's house.

we uploaded new pics from our everyday craziness. lol. we'll if vanity is really a crime, then maybe we're already in jail. sentenced to death. hmpf, i really cant imagine my life behind bars. but, one thing's for sure that cant be jailed when im behind that nerve wrecking bars is my thought. LOL. imagination. again. weirdo. "umalis ka nga dito! freak" HAHA. just dont mind me today. lol i was just remembering bendita's line.



well, that's it. im off to bed. thanks for reading. God bless. HAHA. ♥

basyang♥

destiny

so remember when i told you i was stuck reading this uhm, book? -- night swimming. well hell yeah, this book's surely great. i mean its fantastic.

my attention was caught with this certain paragraph and it made me remember an event of my life where everything *almost* went wrong. here it goes :

" when a woman finds out her husband is having an affair with another woman. the woman may not even know the man is married-- maybe she was lied to, as well-- but the wife hates the woman and forgives the husband. It's easier to hate someone outside the relationship. that way, for better or worse the relationship can stay intact."

right? ugh why do every woman in this world act like this? darn! maybe its just that we. women needs love, we crave for affection and all that.

why do i want love so much? why do we want love this much? is it because we don't want to be alone in the end? (i struggle to be honest with myself) i believe it was more than that. but i also believe it was okay that love serve as a buffer against loneliness. isnt this an unsaid truth for most men and women we pass on the street everyday? the women who are buying something at the grocery store, the men who are fixing their shirts at the stoplight, looking at their watches, late for something? people dont want to live alone, and we certainly dont want to die alone. yes it is true.

LOVE is a legacy, indeed. love is how we stay alive after we die. and finding our destiny *our destined partners is not just "what happens"; it is what you made happen. and guess what? i already found mine >:D i found him because i wasnt afraid to.

well, im sort of poetic today maybe its just PMS. LOL. well okay, forgive me, im just trying to be happy okay? after many weeks of not seeing my boyfriend, im feeling kinda numb. numb of everything. the only thing that i feel is sadness. well, somebody told me, "you have to know sadness to know happiness. sadness is a gift. you give it its due and then its over. without it how can you really know the worth of being happy? but when you finally get it it's as sweet as sugar."

thanks for the one who taught me this. somebody named "me".

as i write this blog. i realized, everyday is indeed, a miracle. Thanks God. ♥

nostalgia

its been a week since school's out. and i really have a feeling of sadness inside of me.

i miss everyone ive known. i miss every laughs weve shared. our simple chit-chats about how good life is. i miss the way we used to play childish games. the way we pass on gossips, the way we yell and say "kinsay naay assignment? pa kopya be" weeew. high school's really fun. especially when youre with your idiot friends. xD

but you know, for all the people ive met and for all the memories i reminisce every now and then i have a place to go when i feel the loss, the sadness and wonderful nostalgia and all that. i'll have a place that will bring back a happiness that's so special, so perfect, that when you feel it, it will almost hurt for all its sweetness. a place called "heart". :(

but sometimes we need to accept and have sadness to truly know happiness then when you get it it's all much better like a honey from a rock. a honey from a rock. life hands us lessons, we just have to face this awful situation--away from your friends and lover, and grow from it. but honestly, its hard being away from them . its like im behind bars everyday. but what else can i do? what else can we do? just face it. life stinks sometimes >:D

still have 66 days before partying XD

TJ's xD

hello >:) i went to school yesterday so i can attend the TJ's FINALS (waaaat?) what i mean "finals" is their DOTA finals. lol so here's the thing. i went to school and after 5 minutes of waiting for the third year boys i decided to go to ARIES-- this is where they usually play. so there, i found them :) then its like i cant see anyone there because its so dark. and its so hard looking for mc. ugh so i decided to shout "JUN PYO!!!!!" then he grabbed my hands LOL he was actually in front of me. WAAAAAAAAAA XD i went on lol-ing that time. then as they were playing dota i went on facebook-ing. ive lots "-ing" today. well. then after maybe an hour of playing mc shouted "yes first ko" yeah right AGAIN? then after a second, the PCs went off. BLACKOUT >:D nice timing XD

we went straight up to school and there we found kho. we ate snacks at the cafet. then a lot of chatter about the camping. we all gathered at the circle of life continuing our chit-chats. ive got an aching stomach than time. if i can roll down the ground, i would. its like HAHAHA there and BWAHAHAHA here. its because they keep talking about what they "saw" at their cr and quarters. butts there and butts here, xD okay!! enough of that. we went to ED to buy snacks. then returned to the circle of life after that. then here comes ate angelica's boyfriend and the third year boys went crazy. well. XDXDXD

they said that the blackout will soon be over at maybe 2:30 so we decided to go to ket kai. then we went to netopia and the boys kept on teasing every gamer. its like "boobits ba ui"." "banga" "kaigit" lmao. after that we headed to aries. but there is no electricity yet so mc and text? oh i forgot, hmp forget it, 2 of the tj boys were singing "banyo queen" the SUDDENLY. they saw a girl with her backless blouse and her "bilbil" was entirely exposed. they called the other boys to watch this thing. and there, again LTAO. minutes later mc realized that SHE is a HE. (that girl was a HE) xD wt? well that's life.

i went inside aries where i found out the third years were teasing remart. it goes like this

ako: "asa diay ka nag puyo mart?"

sila:" KOREA"

garth:" kinsay international hearthrob?"

(he points remart using his puppet)

boys really have their own punchlines that kills me to death laughing

then they werent contented teasing remart, so they shifted to justin

garth:"kinsay local hearthrob?"

(then he points ato justin using his puppet again)

then we really had a lots of HAHAHA, BWAHAHA, its a long story though.

guess what? after maybe an hour of waiting for the elec. we decided to go home. poor us, well its actually only them, because i really enjoyed going with them. its like theyve known me for a long time and vice-versa. theyre like my "kuyas" . :( i longed to have a kuya, but God gave me more than a brother. He gave me BROTHERS xD thanks God.

sad to say school's out and im not gonna see them for quite a long time. i miss them already especially my 2 "anak" >:D hahas. well thats it. a summarization of my day.

zhaaaaiiheartmyr

camp success

wow. two thumbs up service team. go food com. MAG BISAYA NKO. haha at last mana jud ang camp. successful kaayo with the help ni God.

to summarize our churba-churba. : here it goes

FRIDAY AFTERNOON

i've already prepared all my camping stuffs and what-so-ever. so giadto nako sa school. kami ni mitzi padulong na sa manresa when we

realized, daghan kaayo mi dala. so we decided na mag taxi. BUT. wala mi money that time. so we ask for solicitation para sa amu pamasahe

then nakalikum na mi ug hmpf Php 55 to be exact. then we're off to manresa na. then natag bu-an namo si" maam buotan". we told her na asa siya padulong, then she said she's in a hurry. so wala na nag back off nalang sa mi kay bcn ma-highblood siya. HAHA. then na shock mi when she called us. it's like "HOY! pagdali namo" we thought she's angry. but actually she's not. then she told us na asa mi padulong and we told her everything bout the camp we'll gonna have. and so she gave us a 100 peso bill para daw sa amu pamasahe. thanks God. grabe kaayo jud ka good si Lord. then naka.sbot najud mi ug Manresa. weee. since manresa is near SM, we decided to buy foods. then there, we met some of our co-campers-- mcville,ralph,text and garth. then after we have our grocery, ralph treat us sa jollibee. how good of him :D then we went back sa amung mga quarters. then mitzi and i went to take a bath. since my shirts are kinda "kulang" kay mag borrow man si mitz sa ako isa ka shirt, i borrowed mcville's . i really looked like a boy that time. ugh watta shame xD then participants are slowly filling the quarters. then we officially started the camp with a prayer of course and participants went to their session hall.

SATURDAY

the service team didnt went to sleep early last friday night. butwe, the food com. woke up early this day because we still need to prepare breakfast for everybody. this day will be my turn to share about how joining this camp and answering God's call changed my life. Baptism will be done later, in the evening. Thanks God kay walay nahitabo na dli maayo. God really loves us. :) most of us slept late. maybe 2 in the morning. some of the participants including my beloved slept at around 5 am. imagine that? but before that we searched for fun then we planned to have a TRUTH or DARE. then we had a little chatter. it goes like this

( mcmyr and me entered the dining room when we found marvin kho drinking some water )

ako: marvin bay. chuy kaayog triping

marvin: para li katulog ba.

mc: (went on lhao)

chit.chat. blah bla blah

( we noticed na pirme ug refill si kho)

mc:kho pag mahurot na kaw jud ang sala sa tanan. haha

(nakakita ko ug ilaga)

ako: eeeet ilaga

(giduolan ni marvin , abe niya ug mudagan then mura man ug pasulong sa iya na shock siya, pag balik niya:)

marvin: scared ko bay

ako and mc : BWAHAHAHAHAHA

lol kaayo as in pag deliver niya sa "scared ko bay" na line. makabuang. haha la pko ka recover ana hantud karun.

SUNDAY

last day sa camping. farewell na sa tanan, :( it really hurts when the time will come na kelangan naka mag bid ug goodbye sa tanan. though ive known some of them in a short time lang murag dako na kaayo sila nga part sa akong life. i hope whatever the participants learned in this camp, maka change na sa ilahang life. and i hopethey'll truly accept God in their lives.

POWER UP

i love you God

YESTERDAY
i got home at maybe 6:30. i was planning to study for our finals when i forgot. my
mother's not home, she's at my aunts house just to have a "short" chatter. waaaat the? and i left my keys inside or lost it? aaaahhh. irdk what to do. im totally an idiot. ugh jerk. since my phone's not O.L i borrowed my neighbor's and texted my mother. it goes like this " MA! asa naka? naa nko house, wala koy keys nabilin.IM STARVING!!" i input the word "starving" because i know she'll get worried. HAHA. after 10 minutes of waiting, well, praise God, she's home.

TODAY

nothing quite happened today. hmpf, so here, we just finished our mathematics, Filipino and Values exams. tomorrow will be biology. ugh poor us. tsk.

hate DOTA

hate DOTA

this will gonna be short. to start with, WOOOHOOO. no class for the whole day. well, aside from computer lab. but we actually didn't do anything. our teacher allowed us to surf and browse the net. :)
Then after that, i got up and went on to clearance-signing. darn! wth with this clearance thing. i mean
they just want us students to be tired. it's the last week of class and we, students must enjoy our last days
with our friends. *wala talagang patawad ang MUST sls teachers. why do we need to have our
FINALS when in fact our grades are already *luto* as what they say. ugh. then, AGAIN he came, arghh
its always him that can make my days brighter. LOL-ing. <3 it was as if a tiny light had been turned on at the end of the lonely road that had been dark for years. HAHA. well, we had a lot of chitchat then we painted our names on our arms with water-based water colors bare-handedly. after that, here comes his friend. "the ice breakers" he told him they'll gonna have their dota something. whats with dota anyway? it sounds boring, and it'll always be boring (for me) i don't really know anything about that, the "first blood" thingy and what-so-ever. and then again im alone, stuck with this book im reading "night swimming" well, this book has a lot of adventures in it. i am in the part when "blossom" found out that her crush "skip" has a WIFE! imagine that, hmpf. enough with my blah blah :D back to the real thing. you know i easily get pissed off when they (his friends) take him away. sad to say he cant say "NO" to his beloved friends. and that's it, i need to wait for 3 hours until they're done with their game. 1 hour to go until he'll be back. so i gtg. *gotta continue my clearance-signing thing xD

68 days of summer :(

68 days of summer

school year is ending. man! time's too playful. it rushes the hours when

you're enjoying. hahas. "parang kailan lang" ang akong drama. :( sad to say

but im entering the new world- JUNIOR. damn! can you imagine that?

i will be a JUNIOR! well, God bless me. then, what's next? being a senior.

and i'll be graduating. :/ then again enter college, become a freshman, sophomore,

junior, and thengraduate. be married, work and have kids. i realized life's too short

to be wasted on things that arent that important. TOO short

that with a blink of God's eyes we're out in this world. i've been 14 years

existing in this world. and yet i havent lived my life to the fullest

who knows i'll be gone tomorrow? but after all, i thank God for giving me

this life. especially the part when He gave me him. that was the time when i don't

know how to take care of myself, the time when i was actually giving up on

love. *wow, im somewhat like a mellow-dramatic human

but then like what i was talking about, he came and that changed everything.

at first, it's like " God thanks, pwede najud ko mamatay".

then i discovered, i can do many MANY things with him. i wanna travel

the world with him and everything that i could think of with him.

And now classes will soon be over. and i'll be spending

68 days without him. ugh! 68 DAYS? wt? well. what can i do, i mean what can WE

do? we'll see. fin. end. taaataa ;) *wink

dissection

FROGS! ugh.

so remember when i told you about this dissection thing? so here it goes. we went to our room and started to do this "thing". we got a scalpel and well, our teacher was the one to dissect it, we're just there to observe and we'll only gonna do the "explore and discover" part. well, that part is the most awful one. that's when we open the frog's entire body. and see its lungs inflating and deflating. lol. it is is really fun though, watching my classmates' reactions. its like "aaaaaaaahhhhh." "eeeeeeeeewwww" "yuuuuuuuuckk" "grrrrooooossss" everywhere. hmmmm. actually its really disgusting. but it's really nothing once you get used to it. its the smell that kills me.

how much worst could it get?

what a day

Do you ever felt the urge of killing someone? because of them you're now DYING. i mean not literally DYING. emotionally dying rather. okay im not in my mood today. first, i woke up with a bad dream, well that started it all. then our internet connection was too slow. too slow that i've finished taking a bath but it still hasnt finished loading. yeah great. darn! i forgot. i have a class. ugh. as i entered the classroom thanks God it hasnt started yet. later this day, our teacher announced that we'll gonna have our dissection. and my classmates went totally crazy. i got pissed off when my classmates started to scare each others ass off with frogs. wth with frogs? duuuh? they're big enough to squeeze those thing. i'm annoyed dont they get it. ow well. and btw thanks a lot to shaira. she got my hair full of powder. gggggrrrr. here comes trouble. and i've already reached my boiling point X( part of me want to cry. part of me want to yell, but there is a piece of me that tells me to stay calm. so i did. i stayed calm. but one more strike and im it, it's over im gonna burst myself into tears, * i guess?. well. talk to you later. gtg. got a class. :)

ugh x/

x(

yeah great. i was just planning to end this day with a smile. but then i (again) remembered what she did last January. ugh. you really have no idea what she did. and if you'll do, i bet you can't deny the fact that she is a home wrecker. well im exaggerating here. but it so-so damn true. a while ago i visited his profile and there she goes, liking almost every post he adds. and constantly pm-ing him. well, some girls really don't know what's the meaning of he-has-a-girlfriend thing.

new ;)

im NEW

well its my first time to create a blog. lol i mean duuh? in my 14 years of existence im blogging for the first time. lol-ing. forgive me. HAHA. it's been quite a day today. glad it rained. thanks God. and btw ugh im missing him so much. *thinks* is he missing me too? well i hope so. haha i just pass by him yesterday without him noticing me. he wore a red shirt, a brown shorts and his hair are'n gel-ed xD well he look gorgeous. and that made me love him even more. haha i fb PM-ed him that i saw him, then he replied that i should have called him or something. haha. well it's monday tomorrow and at long last im gonna see him again and that's for sure.